I’ve been dreaming about this day all week. It’s the day when I have UNINTERRUPTED writing time. Where I can sit at my desk after walking the dogs and just write. No meetings, no appointments, the school run is later than normal and I have ALL the time to write.
But when it comes to school run time in the evening…I have nothing to show for my day. I have procrastinated. I have scrolled. I have faffed. I have even cleaned the bathroom. But I have done no writing whatsoever.
And this is because my mind told me I didn’t feel like it. But in actual fact I was scared. I was overwhelmed. I was worrying about potential future successes or fearing failure. And I was way out of my comfort zone. It was easier to come up with excuses as to why I hadn’t written than actually starting the writing task for the day.
This went on for a while until I remembered an old trick a published author once taught me when we were in a writing group together. And every time I used this trick - I got writing done.
In this video I talk about this trick and I also share how I put it into action as I finish off the chapter planning for the last two acts of my novel:
Over the weekend I sent out a newsletter which opened with a short anecdote about my YouTube channel. The subject of the newsletter wasn’t actually about YouTube at all but I received an email back from one of my lovely subscribers asking what had happened with my YouTube journey. She said: It feels almost like we followed you on your journey then when you arrived at the Emerald City, you left us outside the gates.
I completely agreed. I’d stopped talking about YouTube once I reached monetisation. I’d shared a lot of what I was going through including my analytics and how close I was getting on my Instagram Stories - but then just didn’t carry that narrative on.
My YouTube journey has dominated my life for a year. I was thinking about it a lot; anxious that I would not reach the relevant requirements and then, when I did, I was worried about being rejected and monetisation would not be allowed for my channel.
So I thought I’d explore why I stopped talking about my YouTube channel in this blog post, as well as looking at my YouTube journey so far.